That's what I have been asking myself lately.
A good friend of mine and I were EM'ing lately and I was pontificating on how I have not ridden as much as I would like to, and have not been to the fitness center as much as I would like, and that I have been feeling quite lethargic lately. Depressed even. So my friend pointed out the fact that things have not been quite so lovely in my life lately, and that I was probably suffering from stress. Well shit, It didn't even occur to me that I have been, and continue to be under stress. I mean, stress is a part of life, right?
I think my friend is right though. I don't know if it's all the added stress of what has been happening lately, and the added pressure of things at work, or just the fact that I am getting older and more tired, but it is wearing me down. I have used my horn on my motor vehicles more in the last 6 months than I have in the last six years combined. I Swear To God, one of these days when that moron that wants to cut me off and expects me to slam on the brakes to let them, will get the surprise of their life,,,,, I won't. Of course, then MY insurance company will have to pay, since those that do that stupid shit usually don't even HAVE insurance.
Ya know what? I am getting to the point that I really don't give a shit.
Piss me off, pay the consequences.
There.
I have vented.
I wish I felt better, not only about the venting, but because of it.
So I got to use some swear words, and it didn't even help me make my point, but made me sound like some idiot that runs people off the road. I am usually such an upbeat person, I just don't know why I am so down, maybe the weather of October?
The good news is, I have picked up my guitar again! I have been having SO much fun playing and perusing the internet looking at what's out there since I last played in a band. Wow! Pedals, amps, PA heads, ALL OF IT is MUCH cheaper than it used to be.
I also found a nice program that I can record my craziness playing onto my computer, and the program is free. So many things have changed for the better.
So many things haven't.
L8r
9 hours ago
5 comments:
Hang in there. You are not alone in your feelings.
Have you thought about talking to someone about how you feel? Or just go for a ride, works for me :).
RonJ
Go for a good ride and fo'get about it.
Hang in there.
Like CycleSD said it is that time of year, it seems. Lots of emotions when holidays get closer.
You have had a lot on your plate this late summer/fall.
Hang in there kid. Maybe be need a Monks night to gather and laugh!
Hang in there! A good long bike ride can sometimes make me feel better. Good luck with all the stress!
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